Starting Over

New beginnings, starting over, fresh start, however you want to call it.. it’s an inevitable part of life. It is scary and one can easily dread it. I quit my job about 

a year ago. It was not the way I envisioned this move panning out. I saw myself working for the same company I loved for 11+ years, the career I built from ground up. So then, after a few months of soul searching, therapy and tears, I decided “hey, let me pursue my childhood dream! Yea, let’s do that..”

Well, what was it?

So the searching continued. I remember loving being in front people, speaking, acting, making everyone either smile or cry. I love how I can connect to them. I remember when I was in college, there was this lady giving a talk in our auditorium. It was one of those required conferences we had to go to. I remember telling myself, I want to be just like her.

But, yea..what exactly was it?

I remember her making me feel so mushy inside. She moved me with her story. I loved that feeling. So I want to make others feel the same way. I want to move people. I want to be the messenger of whatever they need to hear or feel in that very moment.

So, what is it exactly?

Maybe, a speaker? But in order to be a speaker, I have to create the actual talk. So… do I want to be a writer? A writer and speaker?

How about you, are you doing something that you love? Or are you like me, starting over again after 20 years of spending on a career that, you know I semi-love. I learned to love it to be honest, I gave my best and I was the best.

That’s how I know that whatever I am doing now, I will succeed, because I always give my all, and my best. Go big or go home. All or nothing.

Starting over starts with searching inside. That’s why it’s hard, it’s a time when you tackle your demons head on. Bob Proctor said

“You are the only problem you will ever have and you are the only solution.”

Let’s all enjoy this journey!

xo, Van

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